>>> SARAH

off to..

2010-03-25T00:02:00.011+08:00

http://www.fallenblackberries.blogspot.com/

dear bleeding mascara, thanks for being there for me when i was bored, feel like blogging and keep me accompany. i will never forget the memories i shared with you. it's time for me to leave because in this mascara of mine, everything that you kept for me contain sweet memories together with the sorrow and painful ones. i can't bear with it. i really need be freedom from this in order for me to take a new step. once again, thank you for sharing with me. i still teasure everything.

2010-03-22T00:14:00.001+08:00

"To understand me, you have to meet me and be around me.
And then only if I'm in a good mood, don't meet me in a bad mood."

end of it

2010-03-21T15:14:00.008+08:00

i realise this is life. been there, done it, felt it, experienced it, and hopefully over it.

even the truth is hurting, i started to slow things down. never get rush into things that i'm not ready to face and always wonder. i need to regain it all back. like what Asha have mention in fb, "Time heals everything,Truth tells all." totally agree with ya babe!

now i know what's the true meaning of my blog, bleeding mascara. its like this, i wore mascara to work on 19 March. i wanna look attractive to work of course. when i went back home, i log into my fb account. i check out some interesting stuffs untill i found out some ugly truth which totally break me down and i was very much in a miserable situation that i ever been. oh great, i found out on the day after they get started. woah, i'm so fast!

that's when my mascara started to bleed down my cheeks. never expect he would do this to me. let me repeat, I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE HE DIDN'T EVEN TELL ME. i'm never beaten, not defeated but broken. my eyes are hurt and hands shiver.

time will heals everything. memories will stay. which is not the good part. but i still teasure it if we were happen to walk away.

the weather is currently raining. i guess the weather describe the way i felt?

anyway to my closest friends and girlfriends, i will have a new blog. will create it soon. maybe it will be a good bye in this bleeding mascara of mine.

thanks for reading it since July 2007.

putting it all back

2010-03-20T02:06:00.004+08:00

few mintues ago, i found out more ugly truth. just thanks for the "PROMISES" AND NOT HIDING THINGS AWAY FROM ME. SO MUCH FOR YOUR "NOT HIDING THINGS" I TRUSTED YOU, YOU KNOW. AND NOW WHAT? BEFORE NS, U HAVE YOURSELF A "GF". HOW AWESOME?? B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T.

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.

Well, I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces
Putting my heart back together.

CLAPPING MY BOTH HANDS NOW

2010-03-19T12:53:00.012+08:00

i'm being fucking nice here. i even delete certain parts ;) be thankful i'm not that evil.

i was like............

lee ronson AKA azli, thanks.

better in time

2010-03-11T22:40:00.002+08:00

when i need to let out something that kept me hurting inside, i cried. but it wont be long. i need to fully regain myself. time and fate can tell. thanks to those wonderful people who were there to cheer me up. love you all. muah!

so much for the ugly truth

2010-03-11T00:40:00.012+08:00

when i stop and stare, i started to think about us. yes, i do miss us. but never mind, no point of forcing the things i wanted and always outta my control.

i trying to done with it. but the pain lives on inside. didn't thought it would be hurtful and left me miserable alone. after i seen that through facebook, i burst out crying my heart out loud and let everything out and feels like every part of me is very dead and sad. i just can't believe it just popped out infront of my eyes.

i've been doing alot of thinking and wonder. well, i know i shouldn't be wondering and such. but these unwanted thoughts are making me like, "WHAT THE F-U-C-K?!". and i have to stop all of these. or i will be miserable, again.. i need to relax. i need alot of time for now. someday, just someday i'll be alright.. i hope..

i don't wanna waste any longer but baby i'm gone. i'm more than what you could ever possibly have, ******. thanks for making me all happy for the thing that i gonna do specially for you. now it feels that it is ruin because of your ugly truth...

it's not a dream anymore, we just getting started - hayley

2010-03-07T12:55:00.007+08:00

i will blog something precious later. for now, i just want to post something short and simple.

later i will be attending paramore's live with my sister. im sooo EXCITEEDD. gotta get ready, bathe and paramore-ing!

2010-03-03T21:34:00.014+08:00

life have been treating me good. i love having good life. thanks God. work have been good too. everything went smoothly except for some thing in me that made me stop and think. i know it's over and the feeling that i kept for so long is still with me. like you texted, "if you want to see me happy, you got to let it go" i'm trying..

i want to be happy too. i don't wanna be stucked in some hole that keep bothering me. i need to be outta there and scream to the world that i can be strong. woohoo! lol okay... --"

i believe in this, "in every bitch, there always mothefuckers that made her do it and that person as hell don't deserve any part in her"

4G iphone

2010-02-25T22:04:00.005+08:00

oh my god... i want this, i want this, i want this, i want this, i want this, i want this!!!! 4G is the latest shit. the question is, when can i get this?

2010-02-25T21:43:00.003+08:00

so rad..

h o t

i l o v e the whole top!

i love hayley

2010-02-24T03:06:00.004+08:00

7 March, here i come! get ready to get wild, rock and roll baby~

broken hearted girl

2010-02-24T02:33:00.008+08:00

"You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out

You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart

But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day"

this song exactly explains how I feel now.

i was like; baby, baby baby nooo

2010-02-21T01:57:00.008+08:00

finally his video came out. just got to know thru fb which was given by someone who is near to my heart. a song that reminds me of him. and omg, i just loveee what justin was wearing in the video! that coolest jacket, the "hip pop" necklace, purple high-cut sneakers = that's H-O-T! *melts*

oh, i had a job already!! and today gonna be my forth day X) share with you guys soon. cos im fucking tired now. goodnight!

happy legally 18teen, azli

2010-02-18T02:46:00.001+08:00

where are the good o'l times?

2010-02-17T23:30:00.008+08:00

i've learn something new as days goes by. you have taught me how to go on without you. bcoz i know, even we're off already, you can't be with me that often whenever i need you. i'm on my own for now. i'm becoming independent. sometimes, you told me things that upset me. it's always better to know even it will end up disppointed me, than to never know and always wonder. i miss the bestest moments ever.

happy nails

2010-02-17T19:30:00.003+08:00

i intend to paint nails when i'm in the happy mood. especially in redish pink. woo!! thanks zeila! X)

marshmellow party

2010-02-17T19:00:00.012+08:00

the girls and me had mee soto yummeh, && marshmellow with strawberries madness while watching, 'Santau'. after that, we did something new to our hair. like curls and straighten 'em ;)

that's all. too lazy to blog more.

nothing rock me today

2010-02-17T18:43:00.008+08:00

day started out pretty boring
chat with __ (fucking QT)
sister offer me her job which interview by tomorrow. ohh at last!
meeting nunu later for some suprise to someone

omg, LIKE SERIOUSLY i desperately need a job. i've got nothing to do till like i don't know when?

ciao.

unprivate

2010-02-15T18:50:00.002+08:00

i feel like unprivate my blog. for awhile, i think.

BBQ

2010-02-15T17:43:00.009+08:00

to dearest Jah, thanks for inviting me over your chalet for BBQ :) really enjoy cycling with you guys and the delicious choco cake. PS: I LOVE JAH'S SATAY!!

oh look.. someone was having an advance birthday suprise!

bye bye to ITE

2010-02-07T22:56:00.003+08:00

yay i've graduated! bagus ah, tk amek gambar pun -___- but my grad picture will show up at ITE website on 22 Feb. okay, this is a boring post. i will post a proper update soon alright?

xx

cutie boy

2010-02-03T21:22:00.008+08:00

OMG hes sooo cute, hes 18 plus an awesome singer too!!!

bigcitydreams by nevershoutnever
check out his songs!

2010-02-01T22:02:00.002+08:00

i just love night life.

shesha

2010-02-01T20:00:00.006+08:00

shesha was great. but the flavour (mango) is tasteless! urgh not only that, the waffle is small and not hot and yet, it cost us $5.90. so unreasonable :/

gotta do a change in life

2010-02-01T18:15:00.005+08:00

i've enough of getting hurt and cried myself to sleep. now, all i have to do is stop being miserable and gotta be happy always!

i hate this part

2010-01-22T23:18:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i really need time/space for myself. i hate when you being overreacting towards me. it's very insulting and sad when you started to accuse me where-as i did nothing wrong, not even close to cheat. i can't believe you did this to me over and over again. i had enough of all this! i really need a nice-but-not-long break from you.

even we're done, you still controling me and YOU GOT TO STOP THIS WHOLE THING OF BEING JEALOUSY AND PARANOID. i know you still love and care for me. and i really do appreciate you but sometimes, you are out of control and you're the one who should control yourself first.

if you get jealous of me hanging with any of my guy friends, meaning you don't even have trust and faith on me.. :'( but it's okay. i don't expect anything from you anymore but as long as you still stay true to me, i'm happy. i will be there for you if you need me..

msn drawing

2010-01-17T23:12:00.007+08:00

found lela and alif's msn drawing. hahahaha how cute.

2010-01-17T21:15:00.002+08:00

on Wednesday, i follow azli to Temasek Poly for open house. he wanted to go there to see what's his course all about. suay ah ikot azli. bcos we took the wrong bus. suppostly bus 6/69 but instead we took bus 6 which go to another path. omg, and somemore the weather sucks. we waited for the next bus around 15 mintues. i thought of taking the cab but nooo he wanted to walk. damn far ;/ thank God, at last the correct bus came. urgh, waste my ezlink card $$ that's okay azli, we humans make mistakes. hahaha!

then he wanted to go for "school of design" talk. but we missed it bcos of taking the wrong bus. hahaha! off to the canteen and makan. yay! then i fall asleep. lol!

we headed to Tampines Mall. meet Asha at topshop and azli had to go after he accompanied me waiting for asha's arrival.

walked around the mall. almost 2 hours been talking at J.CO. love the donuts there and the Mochabella. yum! sleepover her place was so fun! movies, gossips and paint our nails! what could be better? hehehe. and omg, we talked till 5:30 in the morning. crazy, i know. hahahaha.

i woke up late, as usual. 1pm. while Asha already done with her bath. we had our dress/make-up/hair done and off to town ;)

omg, i love sleepovers!

2010-01-15T14:02:00.002+08:00

gonna private this blog soon. i feel that someone don't deserve to know tiny bit about me.

2010-01-11T03:03:00.002+08:00

currently chatting with this gas mask boy. hahahahaha giler!

anyway, all the best for everyone who will be taking their O Level results later ;)

random birthdays

2010-01-11T01:41:00.003+08:00

okay... last night, went to alif's granny place to celebrate her 61th birthday then just now went to mum's friend birthday party at Arab St. the place was so cool that i was too busy eating to take pictures. lol.

basically, i spend my weekend celebrating people's birthday.

new school

2010-01-11T01:11:00.003+08:00

I need to get a job real soon to support myself and school stuffs. either i have to SHATEC or coming up the new ITE, CCK. and that school is soo awesome. why?

"ITE College West campus in Chua Chu Kang will also house 22 functioning hotel rooms, restaurants, shops, a convention centre and even a tourist information centre - all open to the public, so students will have hands-on training for future careers in the tourism sector."

that school gonna be the new shit. can't wait!! Insyallah.

2010-01-11T01:02:00.003+08:00

2010-01-05T01:38:00.004+08:00

New Year Resolutions:

get a good job and stick to it. (if its a fun and very teamworking job)
earn lots of $$$
have to go private school under tourism. (tmr is my interview and all, YES)
will study hard this time
stay true to myself
be patient towards dumb people
never shop things that i wouldn't use -___-
keep my hair super long and sexy
be happy always
being with my dream someone ^.^

HAPPY 2010!

2010-01-03T17:17:00.002+08:00

countdown was wild. especially at Clarke Quay. those drunktards were around the corner with their faces red! bumped into ex school mates but didnt have the chance to talk to them yet again the crowd like super URGH. i couldn't contact Fitri cos her cellphone's service was disabled? really wanted to meet her and her boyfriend at Fullerton but in the end, we didn't. haha. hope you had real fun that night ;)

then, i was too dizzy and went home early, 3++am? thought of ton with them (Azli, Nunu, Rina and Tiara) but ah well... sorry guys! we should do that next time ;) had fun with my fun friends.

to all my closest friends, may we still be great friends for years to come. really look forward to catch up latest news/craps/gossips/life story/etc that we used to do! hehe. happy 1010!

goodbye 2009.

2010-01-01T18:38:00.002+08:00

so long and goodbye 2009.

2009-12-30T18:05:00.002+08:00

i can't for this movie!

2009-12-30T02:13:00.004+08:00

hi everyone.

2009 has been quite a year for me.
a year that marks the end of
something painful and the beginning of something so beautiful..

i was in love, got out of love and fell deeply in love again.
but he’s the best damn thing that happened to me ever since.

2010 gonna be a new year to everyone.
may 2010 be filled with lots of love and happiness for you and i.

hugs & kisses!

something i did today

2009-12-23T23:47:00.002+08:00

i woke up a little sad today,
but then i get up and let go of it all instead
because really it's not worth it
to get in a mess over him
to bother get stressed over him
so i'll just go on with my life
and fixate on everything else but you
i have no reason to please you anymore.

i've only got 6 dollars left in my hands,
then i walk down the sidewalk as i pass a weird man,
walk up the staircase that leads to my house
then i go up to my room
and crawl into my bed,
fixate on what's the deal in my head,
i'm alone again..

my only one

2009-12-23T00:52:00.006+08:00

breastfriends, i have kept my secrets here.
like of course you guys (my girls only) are allow to read.

xx

last day working att

2009-12-18T19:12:00.009+08:00

sorry for late update. like seriously, i want my job back. too many staffs -_____-" and yet, i'm still waiting for Sam's respond. so here are the outdated pictures when me and my work mate (which she has my last name, Sakinah) were totally bored. (was my last day attachment)

present......... our latte or caramel machiatto foam art.

tryin' to make like a flower in the middle but ugly. who cares. hahahaha.

how i wish i could give this to one of my worst customer *below* && puke on it. can you imagine when i was like on third day being a cashier and SHE came to me and goes like, "my usual" so yea, i give her the 'what' face. && suddenly she started to, kinda scream to my manager, Tony. "why do you have a new cashier?? where's the one that i know?" OMG?! i was sooo angry! i felt like saying this straight to her face:

1) you are just a fucking customer. so what? only one fucking drink.

2) do you THINK you're the only regular customer here? *shows the puke face*

3) if you won't respect me, you can get the hell out from here. i'm the one who takes your bloody order && don't you dare talk much here ah.

4) ermm, why can't WE have new cashiers? what if the old cashier happen to be sick or smth. use your brain la you.

5) fuck you. muahahahaha!

a week break, shopping && new curls.

2009-12-13T23:28:00.005+08:00

well oh well people. i'm back from a week break from work. i had fun slacking with friends, shopping and oh! i perm my hair, again ;) awesome. i just love big sexy curls... i miss working. unfortunately i don't allow to work at tully's anymore cos too many staffs already. urgh! damn.. :( why must be me? hopefully i get to transfer to sq 2. i'm like so happy wanna work, then what? another break? i think i'ma gonna grow fat and eat lots of junks again. lmao.

thurs was gereeeek. shopping till i lost control && the boys carry my shopping bags. aww how thoughtful. then had dinner at 'Qiki'. the nasi lemak there are power!! they got like, 6 types of nasi lemak. awesome!

man, i need pictures to upload. getting boring here. kay, like nothing to blog anymore and plus i feel like playing games now. peace out ^_^y xo!

my 2nd home

2009-11-30T22:55:00.006+08:00

work is like my 2nd home. been there everyday except sundays. can't wait for this week to end. yay! that's my main reason why i'm always busy. *cheers*

2009-11-30T22:16:00.012+08:00

i've been waiting for my pay. i've been waiting for the next shopping spree. i've been waiting for movie && food marathon with my closest people. and omg, this sat is my last day of working. i've been thinking, should i continue working as part timer? mmm...

before i end this post,

i would like to upload those very outdated pictures... hahaha.

friday holiday

2009-11-27T21:58:00.005+08:00

new album!

2009-11-25T00:40:00.001+08:00

i'm soooo gonna buy Lady Gaga's the fame monster soon! *screams*

one year older to us.

2009-11-24T23:29:00.014+08:00

i'm glad we have reached this far eventhough we are friends now. i love my life i'm leading now. but i still have the same old feeling with me.. there are 24 reasons......

the way you holds my hand.
you hug me tighly when i feeling cold & scared.
you are protective when i'm in trouble.
damn caring.
know the best for me.
the first one for everything.
you are my punching bag.
you like to make me pinch your fats when i hate something you do/say.
i want you to be the first & last.
you introduce me to your family which is so sweet.
never fail to keep contacting me eventhough i say stop contact me after break-up.
you cried to me not to leave you.
it's impossible to hate you.
it's impossible to pretend.
it's impossible to kick you from my life.
it's impossible to stop loving you?
it's impossible to be friends.
i just want to be with you but not together. haiz i don't know..
you are someone who is near to my heart.
special boy that makes me stop & think.
sometimes you sucks but i still like the way you are. hahaha.
i miss you.
i miss everything about you.
basically i'm still into you la.

in other words; happy 1 year old <3
XOXO

random list

2009-11-15T10:08:00.005+08:00

yesterday:

window shopping with natasha harris.
i get so crazy when i saw Ion's River Island wallet that i've been dying to buy!
Ion have the bestest updated fashion. the new cool shit, yo!
thought wanna get myself a chocolate cream chip grande size but sadly not enough money *sobs*
we love uncle's "red light" shop. eh wait, we love the biker jacket, dress more!
almost at Far Eat Plaza clothes are damn awesome.
macdonal outside Marina Square.
we wanted to slack at clarke quey but we can't. police were everywhere.
orang tk salah pun boleh takot. hahaha.
end up, we walked all the way from Marina Square to Bugis just to take the damn 960 bus.
lucky we get to sit. we were sooo tired. oh gosh..
get my arse home && sleep!

wanted to get myself.....

River Island wallet.
biker jacket.
lace sexy dress.
black silky skinny.
lace leggings.
ZA make-up power.

need to.....

granny's money that she paid for my bills.
shopping with natasha again.
movie + pizza hut with lela.
catch up with my girls.
slack with azli, nunu && fit.
highlight outstanding colors && perm big curls. wooo!
finish up with school attachment.

XOXO

2009-11-08T21:58:00.005+08:00

currently at zeila's place with my girls. kecoh! lunch at kopitiam. chicken fried rice. yum!! ain, dirah & anie came down to makan with me. off to zeila's place to slack & do what normally girls do. played dirah's lappy. tried out the webcam. webbied with zul. for my first time!! omg it was so fun. i dont even know how to take pic --" tertinggal zaman pe aku? haha. i did this so called, "ghost pose" i was like trying to scare him. but in the end, it turned out to be damn funny & lame. lol!! then my girls started to wave at him. kepo eh korang! haha.

& linda (his lil sister) is so cute!! with her rabbit hair. awww.. i like the part where she did the rock on pose. sucha funny lil girl. suprising, we got the same pillow *high 5* hahaha. get well soon okie linda? hope to webbie with them again :) xo!

sexy 17teen

2009-11-08T21:35:00.005+08:00

Happy 17th birthday to my dearest gfs.......

HARYANI! hey girl, like finally you're 17 just like us (breast friends) wooohooo! oh wait, only dirah is still 16+. hahahaha. so anyway, thanks so much fer being an awesome friend since sec 1. each year, we became closer && till now we are stick to one. i hope our friendship could last long alrighties? :) i hope you enjoy your sentosa birthday!! && I LOVE YOU, ANIE :)

LELA! thanks alot for all the joy, crappy & fun moments that you've bring throughout the whole period of knowing you. all the very best for your o's! hope you will get an amazing results with flying colors. do enjoy after exams && hang out with me soon ok!! can't wait. don't be sad alrighties? i'm here for you if you ever need a listening ear. i know you can get over "it" (you know..) lela can do it!! --" hahaha. dont forget, I LOVE YOU, LELAWATI :)

hope you girls enjoy your one & only special day. hope to see you guys real soon!!

XOXO

10 list of random shit

2009-11-01T23:32:00.006+08:00

oh my god. this is fucking hilarious. i keep on repeating on the last part!!! specially when paul called his mum. lmao.

about: paul && kay kay write down a list of 10 random words. they need to call anyone to create a conversation with the 10 words without getting caught..

enjoy! xo!

what a small world?!

2009-10-23T00:00:00.005+08:00

eversince i work at tully's coffee, there are quite number of people i work with && suprising, i do have connection with them. what a small world!! people like...

1) Sam my manager, who lives at Pending Road.

2) kak Ilah, lives at Bedok North (just beside my old house)

3) Sabrinah AKA my friend's friend. who is my old myspace friend.

4) Syarifah (shasha), my breeks friend.

5) Aisyah AKA shasha (hahaha) is my schoolmate whoes also having school attachment.

how about that? not forgetting, two of my customers are my west spring senior. so i guess living in Spore IS freaking SMALL.

xoxo

vivo city

2009-10-19T00:04:00.003+08:00

date with Dirah during my off day. chill around at vivo city. having coffee bean + sushi are just great for a relaxing day. mmm, basically what we did were, window shop, chill, crapp & laugh. && thanks Dirah for the cutie bear. aww :)

xoxo

fb butt nonsense + new job

2009-10-16T21:47:00.007+08:00

the shit above there is fucking funny man. pasal topic bontot pun boleh buat conversation panjang & kelaka eh?

i starting to love my new job. being a barista is actually fun! boring part was, giving out flyers. anyway, ive learn some interesting drinks like, chocolate milkshake, cafe latte & mocca bellacino shake. plus, having a great manager is heaven! guess this current job is much better than my previous job. seoul garden is nightmareee.

xoxo

next stop, attachment. byebye enjoy life.

2009-10-12T21:42:00.009+08:00

i'm FUCKING HAPPY NOW!!

why?

lets see... i've applied like more than 10 jobs (think so, haha!) and like only TWO companies called me after i give them my resume. && yea, the resume are sent thru internet and the one i applied outside didn't give me a respond. but what the heck uh, I'M HIRED BBY!! LIKE FINALLY!!!!

if by today i never get a single job, i will be working at co-op (school's bookstore and such) omggggg!! imagine work there EVERYDAY & WONT GET A ALLOWANCE. what the fuck man?!? which idiot wanna work at that kind of standard?

when i told ms Lim i get a job already, she was like sooo relieved & keep on saying she love me. LMAO. cos i always complain to her why the hell i couldn't get a job and blah3... poor her but too bad she's my teacher! hahahaha. okay i just realise, i will start my first day of working on zeila's birthday. cool.

i'm so grateful now. alhamdullilah.

before i end my post, i would love to wish my dearest cousin/girlfriend, zeila....

HAPPY SWEET AND SEXY 17TEEN BIRTHDAY!!

poor you, on your birthday you will having formal dress day. haha. so anway, enjoy your one and only special day. all the best in whatever you do and if you need a listening hear, i'm always here for you and the other two girls. love you cousy! <3

xoxo

me, i, myself and cousy.

2009-10-10T19:28:00.011+08:00

been 3 days straight hanging out/ crapping/ gossiping/ window shopping with dearest cousy, fatinah. she wanted to enjoy right after her exam so i accompanied her. what's the use of having best cousin right? hehe..

so what we did was...

from BP>JP>WCP>BB back to BP
oh! & i realise we went rounding to the west part. haha.
WCP = west coast plaza IS boring.
"arab" dude latest stories ^^ cousy is being flirty lately! hahahaha.

so i've been jobless, job hunting with some friends. luckily, one dude from a job which i applied at internet called me & i decided to ask him to talk to my teacher regarding school attachment. i need it badly. hope i get it asap! insyallah.

XOXO

darling

2009-10-08T15:11:00.007+08:00

love grows, love fades..
i need enough time for myself.
yea, i'm lonely without you around.

last night i was dreaming of all the things that we've been through,
but i have to be strong
i tried not to cry, but it hurts me.

i've been hurt over & over again.
this time i'm afraid to fall in love again
with you..

xoxo

sexy seventeen + raya

2009-10-06T23:56:00.016+08:00

overdue updates. so sorry about that. been busy with my own stuffs. hahaha. so here it goes...

on 24 september during my seventeen birthday.

firstly, i would like to thank my 3 of my dearest girlfriends who suprised me on my seventeen day. and thanks ah ain, u white lied to me a day before my birthday ehh!! hahahaha. i love you guys. && really am appreciate being with you guys for almost 5 years :)

they made for me a hugeee birthday card. and they even pose with it! except for nabilah. HAHA..

see, i am happy! lol

i love you girls! <3

these are hell lots of my raya pictures with my fellow friends. will update soon. mmm ok i'm tired. goodnight! xoxo

2009-09-28T00:29:00.004+08:00

i'm not in a good mood now. feeling depressed and crushed and everything i did isnt worth anything. i think he's not worth any of my effort that i have made. i don't feel appreciated by him. and didn't even thank me. that is so disheartened and saddest thing that is happenning to me. i'm just speechless and feel like crying..

so i guess i'll be better in time, yes i will.

2009-09-23T23:55:00.004+08:00

me and my sister made chocolate cornflakes for raya! i know it's like abit outdated to post about this but heck who cares hahaha. do come my house for the taste of them. teehee!

anyway, selamat hari raya to muslim people out there.

wishing you happiness and peace.

and HAPPY SEXAY 17TEEN TO ME in five more mins!! muahahahaha.

2009-09-08T10:05:00.002+08:00

i love how i managed to catch up with my friends. a day before yesterday buka at nunu's place then yesterday buka at haji lane with lee ronson and jah. then azhar came along. woohooo miss that idiot. oh yea, lee's pants was so vintage and look like pjamas pants. ooops =x but it's cute ya know. heee!

apart from all that, been getting lazier day by day. teeeeheeee! really bad.. i need to get my ass cracking!! suddenly i miss working.

today i finally i took bus 963 to school. weird thing happened when i was peacefully sleep inside bus while listening to 'i got feelings by BEP'.. the bus colided into a motorcycle. the sound was so loud that i went panic!! so i guess the driver over hitted the motor. was stucked in bus for 10 mins or more. everyone wanted to get out from the bus but thank god all the passenger were okay. everyone include me get free ticket ride for the next bus. need to walk all the way to the next bustop. teased for the next bus -____-

now im tired. time to sleeo in class. zzzZZZ

2009-09-05T13:27:00.004+08:00

intercourse ticketing like URGH. cant even display my ticketing price. and therefore i can't print the whole thing. sucha irritating. well i hope i pass with flying colors? hahaha...

I'M BORED! i wanna list down stuffs i wanna do (more like, shopping!) before hari raya:

more make-ups!
silver glitter eyeliner
dye my hair dark blonde + redish
get designer's bag
aldo heels!
accessories, pleaseee..

gotta get few stuffs very soon..

Guess wallet
black biker jacket
coloured eyeliners
more sneakers
more tops!!

wants to:

treat lela a movie :)
celebrate my BIRTHDAY!! (maybe at chalet? hmm nah)
end school soon
complete my exams
perm again my hair?

that's all! will continue more at next post?

BYE AND *BLOW KISSES*

2009-09-03T00:10:00.001+08:00

i dont understand boys.

some of them are SO selfish! only think about themselves. they don't even THINK about girl's feelings!

like this long friend of mine, got a girlfriend already for like a month (somemore FIRST gf), wants me to be his another love -___-" what the fuck is wrong with his brain cell huh? one girl not enough!? i was like, "stop being a jerk and go back to your current gf la" he goes, "but i used to have feelings for you till now" EWW PUH-LEASEE.. I HATE SHARING AND NEVER BE YOURS, YOU TWO-TIMER HEAD.

another thing, i hate when boys started to exchange digits with me. really making me pissed off. plus confessed to me after knowing him like days ago. WHY? he reply, "love at the first sigh." HAHA nonsense!! how stupid can that be?

urgh, boys.. *insert whatever face*

2009-08-30T01:30:00.004+08:00

i love morning shopping!

woke up so early on saturday. collect my facial stuff and adeline the facial person got news to tell me. blah3.. last for an hour. my pay is fucking low, urgh. after that, i headed to town area to shop. i never been to morning shopping and it is sooo frigging awesome! even i was alone. very freedom and shiok. not much people were there so i kinda "rule the place" :D hahaha.

gotta go. tomorrow working, monday will be dress formal day and tues best day everrr = school holiday. wheeeeee~

xoxo

2009-08-24T16:35:00.004+08:00

my body is getting tired and restless.
brain's working slower.
fucking sad and depress. woke up, still sad.

been staying up late, maybe i miss you.
it haunts me, really does.

and for the days to come,
i will be alright.

xoxo

2009-08-24T01:16:00.006+08:00

selamat berpuase to all!

first day of buke is so unforgettable memory. imagine you buke at carpark? yeah, that was how i spend my FIRST DAY BUKE THERE. HAHAHA. not funny okay.. i work and there was no sit for us to break fast. goddammit!

oh yeah. my fav craziest cousin was there too. didn't had much time to talk with him but i did alot of things for him. like changing the hot plate, re-fill the soup, adjust the ice kacang machine for him (HAHA!) and lastly, change the hot bowl. what's cousin for right? hahahaha.. man, i miss all of my cousins. can't wait to meet them during rayer. hehehe. oh shit i should be sleeping now. zZZZzz

xoxo

2009-08-24T00:59:00.004+08:00

tag reply only;

emi: the video is rad! haha. ==" you wanna give up lover to best friend to who ah this time? c(:

dirah: huh?? i don't get what you mean?? hahaha..

fatinah: hahaha, paiseh.. i miss you too cousin! omg, know what? johanis first day buke kat my work place! hahaha :D

lela: hahaha awww. yea, you SHOULD be smiling cos that is a special post for ya! hahaha. thanks anyway for everything :D yea, end of the month baby! okay shhh abt the "you know, i know" keep it lowwwww =x LOL!! love you lots && takecare okies lovely? double XOXO!!

XOXO

2009-08-23T21:10:00.010+08:00

friday night with my dearest girl, nurlelawati!

(pic quality like shit, urgh!)

after months of not meeting her, we had the chance to meet each other. yay! as usual, i was late. cos of sleeping like a pig and i ask her to meet awal since it's been like a week she didn't meet him. so yea, spend more time to him before meeting me :)

gave her the biggest hugs!~ hehe :) thought of sleepover her place but too bad i work the next day. maybe right after your o's okies? alright, so i thought we were just slack around and like usual crap nonsense. but i was wrong. we went to the escalator and i was like, "actually where the heck are we going eh?" she went like, "movies =x oops SUPRISE!" YOUUU..!! wanna suprise me, at least tell me to bring jacket lah. HAHA!

thanks for the movies and popcorn combo treat. you shouldn't do that, ya know.. nevermind, next movie it will be my treat! just wait for my pay day. wooo can't wait!! xD

starbucks while waiting for the movie. drink and slacked outside of the place. plus snap pictures was the funniest of all. hahahaha. lela, you know, i know =x

so we watch, 'where got ghost?' pretty scary. there will be a moral of the story at the end of each story. there are actually three different type of chinese ghost story. freaking funny yet abit of shocking when it comes to "ghost popping" i get so shocked until i almost hug lela. hahaha!

RATE: 8.5/10

walked around at town. almost lost inside ION orchard. LOL.. we get so tired and sat down at this branch. i saw a box of ciggs beside us. semangat ingat there shouldn't be any ciggs inside it la. usually after people smoke they will like left their box of cigg right? but when lela took the box and look inside, OMGG there are like 13 sticks inside it!! till now i wonder what kind of people left their cigg? haiyo.. enjoy eh lela get free smoke.. c(:

lela, don't be stresses up with your school stuffs alright! there's always a time for ya to relax your mind. people are here for you. like ME and awal, right? HAHA. so hopefully the next movie that we gonna watch have to be ON. hahahaha.. i will be there for you!! :D XOXO

2009-08-17T13:17:00.001+08:00

boooohoo! today napfa was alright. suprisely i got an A for my push up. every year i failed! and i don't know how the heck i get A. mmm, plus i came my red light before my 2.4km! gaaaahh.. always happen to me before 'fun time'. like last month, my red light came before my sentosa trip with the girls. how unlucky.. now i'm having stomach cramp/pain. *ouch* and oh, when i did my shutter run, i fall down halfed way cos i wore my socks. i'm clumsy!! --" ohhh my stomach hurts :(

xoxo

2009-08-16T14:03:00.002+08:00

pic of the day:

7 months.

You're the direction I follow to get home
When I feel like I can't go on, you tell me to go
And it's like I can't feel a thing without you around
And don't mind me if I get weak in the knees
'Cause you have that effect on me, you do

Everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

Months going strong now, and no goodbye
Unconditional, unoriginal
Always by my side
Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other
~~You love me, I love you harder so~~

2009-08-16T13:11:00.003+08:00

paramore's new video, ignorance

2009-08-16T12:43:00.006+08:00

i feel fucking hopeless now.

supposedly i have to work thursday, friday and TODAY...

OH GREAT LA, THAT STUPID SEOUL GARDEN PUT ME ON WED -________-"

ASAL BOLEH SIAK DORG/DIER LETAK AKU ON WED!?! WHEN I PUT ON THURS AND FRI, PLS LA JANGAN KACAU HARI LAIN, FUCK!

to make it worst, i only work on wed!!! KANINA CEEBYE *&%$!~^# THEN WHERE THE FUCK ARE MY OTHER DAYS MAN??!!? MEREPEK OR WHAT?

GERAM NYE AKU.

& TODAY: baik ah korang. last minute bilang aku korang tk leh kerje kt goodwood. tak kan aku kerje sorang ah? somemore it's fucking long hours. i thought of working alone without them but damn, imagine you work ALONE for 13 long hours work without knowing anyone there. would you want that? no right?! like that boring like hell lah.

DA LA, TODAY I WANNA DO SOMETHING USEFUL RATHER THAN ROTTING AT HOME. NO LIFE WITHOUT WORK. but at least yesterday i was at home the whole day. cleaning up my dusty room..

bye ah.

2009-08-15T01:37:00.003+08:00

you might use them again.

i remember when my mum bought for me orbit things when i was like between secondary 1 - 3. then i didn't use them at all. i know i was very fussy at that time. i didn't appreciate what my mum bought for me. i feel bad. but during that time, i wasn't fell bad at all. I KNOW I WAS BAD. HAHA!

the orbit things were.. 2 small bag (looks vintage) for going out and a blue jacket.

but i discover that the things are actually nice when i think what suits them. after 2 years didn't even touch them, i finally make use of them instead of keeping them till i get old. (haha?)

last week i use the small bag for hanging out with friends. it's actually match with my outfit and everything i wore. i also told azli about it and come think of it, no matter how much i hate that thing, i still use it in the end when i gets older. hahaha pretty weird but true.

the blue jacket: i thought it looks so boring but it matches my tight jeans, sleeveless shirt & big earrings or with any cute accessories.

- now the moral of the story, don't ever throw things that you might think you won't use them again. you will never know you WILL use them out of sudden when you get bored of your current clothes ;)

but of course, you can give away clothes that you don't wish to wear anymore cos the shirt or whatsoever is getting small or burok (ugly) muahahaha.

xoxo

2009-08-13T10:29:00.007+08:00

facebook question:

Q: What will you do to find out if your crush is into you?

A: firstly, i dont have a crush.
if i do, i'll try my very best not too blush or smile too much! just act normal and be myself when talking to him.
& the first thing i'm gonna ask IF he ask me out i will go like, "SERIOUSLY?!?" (does it sound so obvious? haha.)
IF it's true, i have to look good!
actually to tell you the truth, I'M NOT INTO ANYONE YET :)

2009-08-13T01:58:00.001+08:00

last thursday, i was soooo shocked that emi cut her hair. bloody short!! like some hot scene guy. c(: LOL.

before

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after!!

you are soo stupid for letting go of your precious long hair! GRRRRR. lol.

my all-time fav milktea. very addictive.

me eating fried kueh teow. so sedap yet spicy!national day at school was plain boring. went school eat nasi lemak which i ordered from jasline and also get snack goodie bag. --" pathetic right? our class whiteboard. so semangat. budak2 singaporeans katekan.. haha.

xoxo goodnight!

2009-08-11T22:21:00.013+08:00

everything about you;

i don't get it why when i was with you, you always tend to think about those negative stuffs about me. you just have to think what you believe.
i gave my heart and soul when being with you.

it just hurts me when i think about the past.
nothing could change our past, right? i miss our moments when we were together..
maybe it will never be the same again, but i will treasure every moments we used to shared.
i never knew we could end up like this.
i never knew you were testing my patience.
i can't control my emotions. i know i have to learn to let all these go :'(

your unbelievable imagination and accusing me broke us apart.. you know that? i don't need someone who's always suspecting crap.

i hope you understand. i do give chances and i've change for you. should i do the same thing back over & over again?
am i just being too nice? cos my friends say i am too nice.. :/

2009-08-11T21:50:00.005+08:00

dearest homie girl,
i really don't know what's happening/why you being like this.
lots of thing i don't know and yet want to know.
heard from 2 of my girl pals that you have change and act that we're like nothing to you?
sometimes i wonder, what's into you and what makes you into this.
oh maybe that boy have change you?
should i ask you? yes i think i should.
honestly, i miss you girl.
hope to hear from you soon.
xoxo

2009-08-11T10:24:00.003+08:00

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on."
-Robert Frost

"Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up."
-James A. Baldwin

will update more when i'm home. cos now i'm at the most boring place, school. boohoo!

2009-08-05T09:13:00.004+08:00

time check: 9:11am.
whoa suprisely i came to school so fast. hahaha. everytime i come like 30 mins or more late.
woohoo. know why? cos my office teacher whoes got the same name as me said today got test, fortunately there's no test. double wooohoooo!
kay, wanna do my own thang now. see ya, don't wanna be ya.

xoxo

2009-08-05T01:00:00.002+08:00

recently i didn't dye my hair at all!
just that the red colour came out by itself,
maybe cos the black inai that i dyed before school reopen is fading, oh well..
should i redye? no?

xoxo

2009-08-04T13:40:00.001+08:00

i think im gonna flunk my 'reservation and ticketing' practical progress test.
daaaaaaaamn hard. i told ms lim i can't do anymore. almost gave up :/ SIGH~
i need a tutor! HELP?!

xoxo

2009-08-03T13:50:00.003+08:00

well hello there.

i guess i've decided not to delete my blog. cos i will definitely miss every single thing in this. anyway! i've been busy with life. work my arse off.. nahh, not really. haha. but theres alooot of things to say...

i kinda miss him even we can't be together cos of this certain thing. how i wish i could see him everyday after school and work, awh. that WAS my expected. but for now, i guess i should enjoy my life and live to the fullness. sometimes, i feel like taking drugs, smoke and overdose till sleep and pretend nothing happen. and the next day i wake up into rainbow world..

everyone's changing and i don't feel the same :(

2009-07-27T11:36:00.017+08:00

"i make mistakes, i am out of control and at times hard to handle. but i did my very best to improve everything but if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure don’t deserve me at my best."

sarah's secrets
only for friends.

2009-07-19T23:28:00.002+08:00

there's sooo many things to do,
so little time to have free time.

in other words: i miss blogging but have no time.
awh..

friday i worked at SG, saturday at goodwork park hotel and today at freddy's specs shop. whoa, money is growing bigger. LOL! right, i'm tired. goodnight peopleeeeeeee.

2009-07-13T11:09:00.015+08:00

~~probably i wont update anymore or~~

change my blog, soon.
now and forever, i'm heart broken to fucking pieces...
i'm not okay at all, but someday i will be..

till here.

wednesday, 15 july 09. 9.55am

don't worry people, i'm okay.

cos everything's back to normal. if you wanna know,

i will tell you personally.

for those who have been there for me, thanks alot. really appreciate it.

you guys are the best. you know who you are :)

xoxo

2009-07-09T11:25:00.008+08:00

i remember when one of my work friend asked me, "what will you say if Michael Jackson die?" during work. i was like, don't tell me he died???!! and sadly, yeah. news spread around and at first i found out at MTV news and videos and newspaper. it was a very saddest moment when someone who is very extraordinary talented in music and probably one of the people who can do awesome dance moves. he brings inspiration to the world. hes a God of pop. his music is so addictive until i download 13 of his songs in one night and put all of the songs in my mp3. and later that night i watched "Michael Jackson public memorial" sometimes i wonder why people like him died too early and leave the world. . it brings up a huge shock to his fans all around the world. include me.

RIP Michael Joseph Jackson. you will be always remain in our hearts even you're far away up there.

2009-07-06T00:58:00.010+08:00

first thing first; i miss my ruby red hair. forced to dye black back cos school reopen soon. great, i dyed like 6 hrs before to school. lol. ask you, if school allow us to wear any variety colour of hair clips, hair band, socks and whatever, why can't they (as in teacher or principal) allow us to dye hair in school?? SO UNFAIR RIGHTTT!

hows your life recently? mine been getting good. maybe i got few reasons why i didn't update for sometime.

mmm well, last week i faced the hardest part of my entire life. i ~~almost~~ lost someone i truely love. v-e-r-y hard for me to move on without him. i have his heart. he's my everything and like a tattoo to me. i was the stupidest girl who let him go. i made decision by following my feelings but not from my heart. BUT EVERYTHING IS NOT OVER YET, as what i thought it would be...

2 weeks ago i was fucking pissed off;

1] kinda fight with my work friend. and he driving me nuts. how i wish i could punch him in the face.

2] when i told him i was angry at work, he told me what's over, just leave it.

3] and again, i get pissed off. i thought he don't willing to listen. i just want someone to be there for me.. what he meant was, JUST FORGET IT AND DON'T THINK TOO MUCH ABOUT IT. but i refused and stubborn..

sometimes, i can't control my emotional and temper. when i started to mood swing, he was always the so called "victim". i really don't mean to hurt his feelings. it just hurts me when i see him in the pain.

on Monday he asked me twice if i really want that decision. which was.... separate ways. i thought it wasn't not over yet but sadly it is. i cried the whole night include the next day morning. it was a horrible day for me.

we become 'friends' on that time. BUT STILL I DON'T TREAT HIM LIKE A FRIEND AT ALL!

i was really lucky to have him in my life. he never stop being so patient to me. he still contact with me eventho on that time of period we are not together. hes just too good to me. i just can't believe everything was gone like that. i regret and suffer, a lot. now i know how far he go. decide to make a promise to myself, i won't leave him alone. no matter what i still want to be by his side.

thank God i still have my wonderful friends who were there for me when i wasn't in the good condition. grandma was there too. i'm very grateful. they encourage me to move on, be strong, be patient, don't think too much, never give up easily, keep on waiting and more. it just so nice of them. even azli notice there was something wrong with me before he knew everything. aww.

on the third night of our break up, i went to zhenghua park for some special reasons. walked alone during the empty night and everything there reminds me of him. i called him. he asked me where was i. i answered, "the place where we used to moon tanning, walked during the silent night and when i ride bicycle with you." tears just can't stop.. that memory is still the sweetest.

next morning i never fail to look at my hp. hoping to receive text or calls from him. when i think about it, why not i make the first move instead of waiting.

i texted, "i miss you everyday. i really love you. i was lucky having you in my life. now i lost the love that i've found. you're still my life and everything.. i'm sorry :("

"define everything" he said. guess what? to your surprise, i texted him 7 TEXTS IN ONE SHOT. which of course i will not say it all here cos it's goddamn long.

thursday night, i listened to my mp3 before to bed. he called me at 12.21am!! shocked and wondered. i picked up his call. talked most of the time about us and he told me the truth and all. "friends doesn't exist anymore" i was like omgomg seriously???!! the happiest night!! i knew he's still into me as much i'm into him so deeply. i couldn't stop smiling like a freak. heee. met him after that.

if it wasn't my friends who encourage me, i wouldn't be like this. THANK YOU FRIENDS FOR PUTTING MUCH EFFORT TO MAKE ME BETTER ESPECIALLY NUR FITRI HAREEN!! deeply appreciate of your kindness :D

i've learn alot through out the break up, he make me realize all of my mistakes, he taught me to be strong and he have shown me hows life without him. i love him with my whole heart. he mean a lot to me. i will never ever let him go again, i promise you this.

2009-06-27T03:27:00.002+08:00

this is really random:

1] in one week, i dyed love's hair = purple. (but didn't really came out the colour! geram nye aku) sister's hair = ruby red (kepo me. haha!)

2] i getting love eating the food at my work place.

3] i craving for choco mint ice cream now. can't steal at work place.

4] i've been visiting hayley w's hair fashion webby. cos i wanna learn more how to make red hair fucking bright.

5] i miss happy moments with old friends...

6] plus i miss them already! :(

2009-06-26T02:31:00.003+08:00

rock band was sooo awesome. i sing my lung out! all of my stress gone like that man. i had so much fun screaming. featuring irah. LOL!

what makes i laugh till i sit on the floor while playing the guitar?

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irah lazy to use the drum sticks. so she use her hand instead of the sticks. & not only that, WHEN SHE STARTED TO SCREAM "ARE YOU GONNA BE MY GIRL" SONG. DAMN FUNNY!! SHOULD HAVE TAKE VIDEO OF HER SCREAMING :P

2009-06-25T14:24:00.003+08:00

last night was unbelievble. i sneaked in and i thought everything gonna be okay. but it turned out to be alright eventho my mum was super worried about me. came home around 5plus in the morning. i will do anything for him. cos i love him so much. oh god, i wanna be with him till my last breathe. i wanna make babies with him. only him... i never felt this feeling before. there are sooo many stupid things we do together. and i believe die together. i just wanna scream to the world that he mean a lot to me. he know me that well. he have been there for me thru ups and downs. i will never ever lost someone so precious like him again. losing him is like losing a best friend. i rather die.. i'm glad he came into my life. hes the bestest thing that i ever wanted. thanks baby for everything since 24 november 08..
<3

2009-06-24T08:12:00.006+08:00

happy 7 months! <3 i'm sorry i was a huge bitch to you lately. i didn't meant to hurt you. i thought our love gonna be over but you refuse to let go. that is when i realize we are meant to be together now and forever. thanks for being so patient towards me. love you always. cos you're my everything!! XOXO

2009-06-21T03:09:00.000+08:00

well hello there! my holiday is getting better each day. plus i spend my whole week outside. with familia + friends + love + mostly work. i miss my home. aww haha. so today i'm at home! me and sister clean our room. it looks so neat and big after arranging the beds and stuffs. mum is being a tour guide. my aunt and cousin from malaysia came here. so mum bring them to geylang and bugis. maybe tomorrow to sentosa and some attraction places in spore? lol.

anyway, last whole week i can't work cos i gave late schedule --" so ape lagi? enjoy!

friday + saturday
friday night, i slepover zie'a place & the next day sentosa outing to celebrate nabilah's belated birthday. ahhh, i just love the sand, sea and sun. volleyball at the sea is so fun!

dee!

cute couple.

"cute" nye muke haryani... HAHA!

since my love isnt there, dee is my second "bf". hahahaha.

sunday
lady gaga showcase was awesome!!! be jealous cos i was right infront of the runway stage. muahahahaha. the secret is to bloody wait for 2 freaking hours! like what danial ong said, "all good things come to those who wait" :) the card stated gate open at 6:30pm but it open at 7pm. what the hell. when the gate open already, they checked my bag & we quickly ran just to get infornt. hahahaha.

danial ong choose lucky 4 people on the stage. one of them is my sister! i guess cos of the lighting symbol on her face. she had to dance on the stage. she received gaga's signature & shirt. screams* coolshit!

for more, view my facebook album. (but haven't upload yet. just wait ye.)

2009-06-16T19:31:00.006+08:00

love & me wore the same shirt! haha okay random :)

anyway....

SWEET 17TEEN BIRTHDAY TO NOOR AZHAR BIN KHASAN!!! STAY CRAZY ALWAYS OKAY? MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE. LOVE YA FRIEND :)

2009-06-05T15:13:00.002+08:00

a quick update before to work.

1st) i'm still not happy cos of my missing memory card. GAHHHHHH

2nd) kinda happy cos exams are over! enjoy time during this holiday? maybe..

3rd) can't wait for sentosa outing.

4rd) need more makeups!! i'm running out of makeups.

5th) i want my LG hp back....

so anyway!

last saturday baby && i get wasted at the fort canning park. on that day itself, suppostly meet asha & khai but somehow i wanna spend time with baby. aww sorry guys. khai wanna survey things but i don't feel like it cos of saving money. i did abit of shopping before meeting them. now i gonna save my money. no more spend on stupid things! hahaha.

like finally exams are officially overrr! last paper i studied till 3:30am. suprise? hahaha. somehow i love reading the notes.. LOL. after paper, i excited like hell. meet my breastfriends (lmao!) at plaza. food+laugh+talk crap. then headed to zie'a place. slack+movie+drinks. baby came over her place, watch fast&furious 4. night time, girls & i went to opposite soccer street. watch baby play soccer & slacked again. how i wish there will be no ending for great times.

baby, you're are the sweetest sin. you make me fall in love you over & over again<3

2009-06-05T14:40:00.003+08:00

eeeeee. geram nye akuuuuu... i put my memory card inside my wallet on monday && when i wanna take it out, LOST?!? WHAT THE FUCKING HELL. da la aku kene pakai handphone lamer aku beh skrg card pun hilang. walao weiii. LG phone sucks big time. menyesal siol dulu beli tu hp. *^&%^$#$ fuck la. life's so unfair. malas want to update. later ah.

2009-05-27T23:38:00.003+08:00

what is happening in school lately?

let pictures explain it all...

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my school table. me in cartoon version (bikini babe) LOL! drew by syarifah :)

went inside class 2 days later.... i transformed into a cat woman?!? drew by a sucker from other class whom entered my class.

hehe.

macam siak jer. 2nd floor girls toilet. lmao.

this is actually really rad key chain! just brought them.
left: fadzil. upside down (right): sarah :)

syarifah didn't wear eyeliner for the first time && she has a pair of sepet eyes! :P

meet cheryl the tattoo girl!! lmao.
tattoo artist: myself, jovan & syarifah.

mine.

jovan's. he forgot the "r". hahaha.

syarifah's

2009-05-25T21:07:00.001+08:00

3 updates in one day?!
i'm bored la. eventho... i have to study now! HAHAHA. study fucking hard now then end of this month is the happiest day of my life; pay day. shopping with my crew or maybe with my hommie girls! whoaaaa, i just remember, somemore got GSS. *screams* can't wait!! study first, money later. (like real) xoxo

2009-05-25T19:10:00.014+08:00

another day without you with me. it feels like forever.

before my 16th bday, i wish i'd find someone special & accept me for who i am. untill i met you. i thought i will never find someone like you till i found out we're meant for each other. one specially/unqiue thing about you is that, we share the same bday. okay not only that, when i used to say you irritated me, i was wrong. you actually proven to me that you love me. you're different than any boys i've dated. you shown me what is real love && that's the main reason why i accept you to be in my life.

during end of november, you told me the most saddest news; 3 weeks you have to be away from not only me & also away from spore. i turned into mournful for the whole 3 damn super long weeks without you. everything i did, i put a fake smile. lost interest in whatever i do. when you called me all the way from indon/msg me from laos, you gave me the non-stop biggest smile on my face & jump on my bed like freaking mad pig!!! i even told my mum everything. LOL! sweetest momory!

i miss moon tanning. another of my sweetest momory. i get to spend time with my love under the full moon. untill i accidentally fall asleep. hehe. i will never ever let go what i have right now. i was stupid for almost letting go someone special like you. i hate when it comes to goodbyes. when you send me home, never fails i hold your hand really tight cos the feeling is like, i wanna pull you to stay with me but too bad there is a ending of the story. but there will never be a ending between us! let me change into a flower for you. for sure, i won't stop loving you. cos you're my boyfriend/love/drug/everything. muacks! xoxo!

2009-05-25T14:35:00.003+08:00

been busy with life lately.
natasha && khai will quit job any time :( but they will stay all beacuse of me. aww love you guys. how i wish everything went perfectly without facing any problems at work..

today during class lesson, i sleep for like almost 1 hours due of last night working. hate the fact that some of the staff is treating me like ARGHH. especially natasha. i pity her. sigh. i feel restless and dead like zombie. so i went down to canteen with syarifah to make me awake and refresh. then.. she started to eyecandy-ing this cute boy. purposely walked pass him to toilet just to see his face. she teach me! hahahaha!

ilyf. xoxo